Unemployed...again. Now What?

So, my summer job at the Boys and Girls Club just ended on Friday. I spent the weekend visiting a good friend in Moscow that goes to U of I. The whole town was gearing up for another school year. The back-to-school festivities and energy painfully reminded me that I'm an unemployed post-grad. I miss college so much....I know, all you students out there are thinking "yeah, right! I can't wait to finish school!" That's what I thought too, but, now that it's over, I really miss it.

I feel like I'm living swinging between extremes (how funny that I write this while literally sitting in my backyard swing). I'm often between introverted self affection and a tugging loneliness. Between contented laziness and restless motivation. Between worry and apathy. I have this beautiful abstract vision of where I want to be/the career path that matches my heart. But, I don't know the exact steps to get there....but who does?

Right now, sitting in my backyard, I'm experiencing this subtle metaphor. The vineyard swing is swaying so lightly that the feeling exactly matches the sensation I feel during the peak of mediation....and yoga and meditation lie at the core of both my career and personal goals. The giant metal dragonfly decorating the exterior wall seems to reassure me. The juxtaposition of the pure white butterflies soaring with a livelihood over the dried yellow plant-life reflects my current mentality between extremes. And, this juxtaposition is beautiful…Thus, this current stage of life is natural and beautiful. Okay, the only issue in this moment is the loud, obnoxious hum of the air-conditioner. Really, focusing on it is agonizing with its persistent screeching…. But keeping with the metaphor….it too fits in and reminds me of the restless energy in the back of my mind always pushing me into action.

After observing this backyard phenomena, I read this awesome and resonating article entitled What I Learned During My Senior Year Job Search. Even though I never really had the "senior year job search" since my senior year was so unconventional with only one full term of classes, a term in Ethiopia working and a term off, the article was still helpful. I'm doing the "senior year job search" now. :)

So, I know the answer I'm seeking to get me out of this rut, and into fulfilling employment is to simply do something...anything. I'm starting with this blog to keep me writing and reflecting. Beyond that, I'm going to add to the 20+ applications and cover letters I already have out. And, I'm going to keep on doing the things that inspire and sustain me: yoga, socializing, zumba, soul-searching, reading, eating well. That way, I can still find contentment amidst the current career instability. Post grad life is going to be alright.